Another long day of fighting symptoms. Triggering stuff is everywhere. No TV today. You go shopping and have to avoid certain aisles. You never get a break. You have to protect yourself.
If you're not careful, one tiny triggering thing can literally kill you. I'm not crazy. I'm not weird, a freak or dangerous to anybody. But the pain is always there.
Set boundaries as best you can. Don't let your guard down so that you might dissociate. On bad days, you just stay home and try to focus on feeling safe. Don't go out. Protect yourself. You have to do it.
You can't handle the pain of the world and yours all at the same time. Also remember that you did nothing wrong. Horrible people are responsible for what they do and say. Not us.