Did you miss me? Sorry to be away for so long. It was dealing with a lot of upgrades and updates. Get a new fax/scanner/copier/printer. Time to go up to Windows 8.1 The first time didn't work. Try it again, and install about 300 updates in the process. Now slowly add more software and wait to be able to install Windows 10. We'll see what happens.
I'm still averaging several appointments a week. Symptoms are still there, and you constantly fight to not black out. When you have rare movements of clarity, you fight to not collapse from exhaustion. You have to fight back.
Also, I'm still doing my meditation at night. Now though, I'll try doing it twice a day and see how it goes. You just want to feel safe.