How was your holiday weekend? Here, it was a constant struggle to try and stay grounded. It still is, and at times you just don't go out. You stay home and fight really hard to not black out.
You just try to protect yourself as best you can. Also, others who you don't want to hurt. I still at times have thoughts about raping little kids. If I can't refocus around them, I walk away. What else can you do?