Trying really hard to not dissociate. It feels like everything is really sore, and you have no energy. Small things take a huge amount of energy to do. If we go out somewhere, you have to have an escape plan. How do I get of here safely without attacking anybody?
More appointments this week.
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1 comment:
Haven't left my house for many weeks. Sometimes I can't leave the room I'm stuck in... can't convince myself to open the door, even to pee. Hours will pass while I hide, afraid to stand, afraid my body will go wack on me and relive something disgusting, horrible, painful, something that nobody wants to know, nobody wants to hear. Relive something we wish we would have died from the first time. Feel small and alone. Am small and alone. But not as alone as before I read your blog. Thanks.
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