Almost no energy today. We had to go to the store. But after that, just stay home and rest. Now, try doing that as you endlessly battle to not dissociate. It feels like a million forks in the road. Do you go in one direction and literally disappear? Or, go the other way and see what happens?
It's like you're struggling to face how severe your pain has been and continues to be. Not that you get off on pain. But deal with the severity of your symptoms. You can't turn anger and frustrations off. Having said that, you also don't want to turn into a burned out monster.
No matter what, it's not our fault.