Sorry to be away for a while. A lot 's happened in a short time.
One minute, despite struggling with symptoms and more, I felt like I could function. Then, I had a shortness of breath that got worse and worse. Then, I had to get someone to give me a ride to an ER. My brother was helping me to try and walk in, but I collapsed and needed a wheelchair. AN ER team then relatively stabilized Now, I've been out for almost a week, I'm in a first floor apartment, and I finally have net access again.
Like any trauma survivor that has had long term untreated PTSD stress, you ask questions:
Did I inadvertently give myself heart disease?
Did my past alcoholism and poor diet play a role in this?
I don't think that I made myself sick. Maybe though at times I didn't separate my pain from the pain of everyone eels. You can't solve all the problems in the world overnight. Now though, as long as I pace myself, move smart and don't do anything ultra stressful, I can do anything. I don't need to be on a strict 24/7 recovery program and have a live-in caregiver. Just keep in mind that it's both physical and mental. Being too tough on yourself will actually hurt you physically.
Any thoughts on this?