This is one person's fight against PTSD from being raped. Sometimes I use "triggers"(sights, sounds and more)to get points across. Never to trigger any survivors. If this bothers you, stop reading now. Otherwise, continue and please link this blog everywhere you can.
Another day of fighting dissociating. Tai chi and meditation (along with herbs and tea help). But at times there's the despair. You have to focus really hard to try and stay grounded. And compartmentalize it all. Because I don't know what else to do.
Sometimes you have to really filter out a lot so your intuition can function. Because if you don't, it's like getting bombarded with millions of wi-fi streams. I'm getting better at catching dissociating patterns. Which helps to stay away from the soft-core porn. It's like medicated alcoholics who get sick if they drink again. If I do this dissociating is severe. And then it takes forever to fight your way out of rituals, dissociating and the rest of it.
What helps you to stay focused? What would you like to see here? Any constructive ideas would be great.
Also keep in mind that everything is anonymous here. No secret files, ISP lists or any of that. Think of this as a outlet to help you cope. But like anything on the Net, any links you could post would be helpful. There are some. But I could always use more.
Have a nice night.