Tried to sleep in this morning, but we're still run down. Fight symptoms all day long. Body pain, scream and try to not black out from dissociating. Fight your way out of flashbacks, because you have to. You don't have a choice.
Dissociating makes pain worse. Do something else. Pain at times makes you want to black out. But if you do, what happens then? I still have blackouts where my multiples come out. The last time, one didn't lash out. But the symptoms are still there.
You feel exhausted, but what choice do you have? You have to protect yourself.