Another day of fighting symptoms and trying to not black out. No horribly violent nightmares last night for a change. But the exhaustion is still there. You try to sleep in (unless you have to wake up early), and you're still run down. But what else can you do? I don't want extra medication or to be dependent on sleep aids every single night. I just want to protect ourselves.
Anger and frustration are still there. Will they ALWAYS be there? I don't know. But you have horrible days where you have to be careful to not attack anybody. You just try to protect yourself as best you can from what feels like endless pain. Pain is non stop, and you have to fight back. At the end of the day, you can't do anything.
You just want to feel safe.