Fighting all day long to not dissociate and fall apart. It's scary at times to try and focus on something positive. You can't just sit back and do nothing. You have to fight to focus.
Nightmares still happen. Body pain, torture flashbacks and adrenalin surges. You sit at times and just focus all day on trying to be grounded. You're exhausted, but you don't have a choice. You have to fight back.
Another night with no sleep? We'll see.