Went to the cardiologist yesterday. The good news is I don't have to add any more meds to what I'm taking (when necessary, 10). But I still have to fight symptoms all the time to not black out. The severity of your symptoms is equal to the pain of your trauma history.
At times you want to scream and fight to not snap in two. I don't want to dissociate and disappear. It's like non stop pain (despite trying to ground yourself). Then again, it has to come out.
You have to protect yourself.