Went to see my niece who's in the psych hospital, along with others in the immediate family (whatever that means). I tried to be supportive, but at the same thing I'm really struggling with anger. Nobody supported me when I was in the hospital. All I heard was "it'll be a good learning experience for you" (this is from a psychiatrist). Nobody gave me reassurance in any way. And now I'm supposed to drop everything and support her?
I really don't want to snap and turn into some burned out cynical monster. In the meantime, fighting symptoms is really exhausting. Much of the time I just turn everything off and lie down. We have to protect ourselves.
We just want to feel safe.