This blog has to do with one person's fight against PTSD from being repeatedly raped by more than one person. If this bothers you, stop reading now. Otherwise, keep going and thanks for your support.
Had a rough therapy session last night. We used EMDR and a LOT of homicidal anger came out. My therapist thinks that backed up anger is one of the big problems. But we keep telling him that we have to be careful. Because if we're not, we'll get eaten alive.
A lot of symptoms are still there. A stuck fight-or-flight mechanism is still a huge pain. You have to focus and push to get the anger out. As you do you feel like you're going to snap in two. But what else can you do? The despair is there. How come we have to fight this all the time while the rest of the world treats us like s**t? Then again, you do what you have to to protect yourself. And you're not responsible for what others do and say.
What do you do when you feel stuck?