I have complex dissociative disorder and psychosis symptoms. I have thoughts about torturing and killing little kids. I have thoughts about killing anybody that gets in my way. But despite all of that, I'm not a monster. I have no desire to hurt anybody.
But the thoughts are still there.
The severity of your symptoms are equal to the severity of your trauma history. It has to come out.
I have to constantly fight back. You can't just go with your feelings. That doesn't work. If you don't, you fall apart.
I was in a psychiatric ward, and NOBODY helped me. Does anybody care???????