How's the weekend? Sorry to be away. But it's fight symptoms all day long and don't black out. You have nothing to hide behind anymore. Which means that if you're not careful in protecting yourself from triggering things, the worst can happen. I would never hurt myself or anybody else. But that doesn't mean you can just blissfully ignore this.
Pain is always there. Circulation pain, arthritic pain, chest pain. Also, just feeling paralyzed. Like you can't do anything. You want no noise. You don't want to be assaulted. You just want to protect yourself. You hear a little kid cry. Immediately you jump cut to being raped and screaming in pain. Nobody helps you. The mom helps the little kid. Does anybody help us? No. They say they care. So why didn't you do anything?
You know you're not bad. So how come nobody helped us? You don't want to get eaten alive by anger. But the pain never goes away.
What do you do?