Happy 2018

Happy New Year wherever you are in the world. Here, cold but you fight symptoms and do your best to cope. No matter what, we know we did nothing wrong. We're not responsible for what others do and say.

Protect yourself as best you can.

Face Your History Head On

Another therapist appointment today. Part of it was talking about protection. We're not doing anything wrong. Protect ourselves as best you can. Keep you side of things clean. Others are responsible for the horrible things that they say and do. Not us.

Protect yourself.

Don't Get Caught in Vicious Cycles

Constant exhaustion and fighting symptoms. We're fighting really hard to not get into a vicious cycle of salt and sugar in our diet that will make everything worse. Screen everything and protect yourself.

You can't save the world singlehandedly. But you can be aware and make a difference. Just make sure your well being comes first.

Symptoms and More

Another night of almost no sleep at all. We're trying to stay away from salt and sugar as much as possible. But that struggle is always there. Then you wake up and try to focus your energy so you can then get up and go into your day. Despite that, the pain never goes away.

Abandonment, pain and other symptoms are always there. You try to focus and cope as best you can. But the pain is always there.

Don't dissociate.
Don't let your guard down.
Don't dissociate.
Don't black out and then disappear.

You have to fight to keep some sense of being grounded. Because you have to.

Screen Everything

Fight symptoms and screen everything to protect yourself. Because you have to.

Try to Feel Safe

Happy Xmas wherever you are in the world. Lost of pain, flashbacks and more as we try to protect ourselves. Despite all of that, we know we did nothing wrong. You do your best to cope.

Protect yourself.

Protect Yourself

Lots of triggering stuff is everywhere. Everything has to be screened. You have to protect your well being as best you can.

You can't singlehandedly change the world. But you can be aware and care. Despite that, the pain never goes away. You struggle and try to cope as best you can.

But the pain is always there.

Remain Calm and Don't Dissociate

Normally we try to stay away from making this yet another progressive politics blog. But at times stuff happens where you have to break the rules.  Today's an example.

Congress passed the Trump "tax cut bill". In reality, it's not a tax cut. It's a MASSIVE giveaway of billions to the ultra rich and giant corporation. It will also destroy health care for so far 35 million people. Does this happen in YOUR part of the world?

Protect yourself.

Pain Is Always There

You fight symptoms and try to protect yourself as best you can. But pain is always there. In the US, Trump wants to pass his tax cut law. This is just a way to make rich people really rich and destroy the rest. Some consider it to be "normal procedure" as politicians sit around and just deliberately lie. Even though they know they're on national TV, they don't care.

Despite this, you screen everything and try to protect yourself as best you can. You feel empty, but you know you're doing the right things.

Protect yourself.

Pay Attention to Tiny Things in How You Feel

Another day of fighting symptoms and trying to deal with constant exhaustion. Don't let your guard down so you'll relapse. Constant pain. But you have to fight back.

You have no control over others who say and do horrible stuff. But you will protect your well being. Keep your side of things clean and then you have nothing to apologize for later.

How are you dealing with your symptoms? Being around triggering people during the holidays? Protect yourself.

Back Online

Sorry to be away. But last night was a struggle to not have a dissociative relapse. Ended up staying up all night and fighting to not black out. This means that you have to fight symptoms every day and not let your guard down.

Pain is always there. You have to face your trauma history head on as best you can. But it never goes away.

Don't Relapse

Fight symptoms and don't dissociate. Protect yourself.

Focus

Don't dissociate. Protect yourself and don't let your guard down so you relapse. Because you have to.

Try to Focus

Fight symptoms and don't let your guard down. At times despair paralyzes you. But you have to face your trauma history head on. Dissociating will make things worse.

You have to protect yourself.

Trying to Focus

Another doctor appointment and fighting symptoms. Despair is always there. You try and focus to not dissociate and have a relapse. But the despair almost feels paralyzing. On the other hand, I know we're following the right things.

You have to protect yourself.

Protect Yourself

Screen everything and protect your well being. Constant exhaustion, but you have to fight back to try and keep some sense of being grounded.

Focus and Exhaustion

Fight symptoms and don't let your guard down so you relapse. Exhaustion is always there. This means you have to be careful to not overdue it on salt and sugar in your diet to fight that. What else can you do?

Threats feel like they're everywhere. Screen everything and protect yourself.

Nothing to Hide Behind

Fight symptoms and don't dissociate. You have to fight back to not let your guard down. You have nothing to hide behind. Exhaustion is always there. But what else can you do?

Triggering Stuff Is Everywhere

Another day of triggering stuff that's everywhere. You never get a break. Dissociating is still a daily struggle. It's like you constantly fight split second flashbacks. You have to fight your way out of it to regain some sense of being grounded. But it never stops.

You can't stop all of the evil people in the world. But you protect yourself as best you can. Also, don't let your guard down to where you might relapse. Why do people always relapse? Because the pain is always there.

Protect yourself.