Burnout

Almost no sleep at all last night. Then, you struggle to try and get out of bed and have some breakfast. Then, lie down again and try to be able to focus. Then hopefully you'll have some energy and can go into your day.

Sometimes it works. Sometimes no.

Right now violently triggering stuff is everywhere. Almost no TV at all today. There's no reason to watch and then to be violently triggered for days at a stretch. In the past, it took me almost 2 weeks to try and regain some sense of being grounded.

You have to fight back
You can't sit and do nothing
You have to protect yourself
You don't want to fall apart
You're always fighting exhaustion
You can barely get up and do the tiniest things

You just want to feel safe.