Protect Yourself

Fight symptoms all day long. You never get a break from exhaustion. You have to keep some sense of balance. You have to get anger out without endangering yourself or others. By the end of the day you can barely move. But that's what you have to do. That tells us the severity of our symptoms.

No heart surgery yet. I told my cardiologist that I would prefer not to have surgery. UNLESS my life depends on it. Everything's connected. Pay attention to tiny things. You scream at times to not black out from dissociating. We don't want to dissociate and vanish.

You have to screen everything and protect your well being.

Exhaustion

Another day of having to go out, and then coming back home and resting. You have to fight back to not dissociate and feel some sense of being grounded. But it's totally exhausting. I don't want to fall back into the trap of more sugar to feel normal. It's like you have no energy all day long.

On the other hand, I know that I'm on the right path. Stay well.

Can Nutrition Cure PTSD and Other Trauma Symptoms? It Can help

If you're just discovering us, thanks for the time. As our readers know, we try to post a helpful blend of holistic information. Diet, exercise, meditation, and other stuff to help trauma survivors lower their stress as they seek help. With that in mind, that brings up the question about nutrition. Can nutrition be a helpful tool in healing from PTSD  symptoms (regardless of the underlying cause of the trauma)? In my opinion, it's one of many helpful tools.

Start with the basic concept of what traumatic energy is. It's energy trapped on a cellular level in different parts of your body. Ideally, you want a trained therapist to help you release it in the most non-threatening way possible. That in itself can be a huge challenge. Finding someone that you can afford AND trust.

If you don't stay away from stimulants (refined sugar, salt, MSG, processed soy), this will magnify that trapped energy. Too much caffeine over stimulates (and can potentially damage) neurons in your brain. Why not try to stay off of these as much as possible.

This doesn't mean never have fun or enjoy nice food, drinks, etc. Just be aware of the effects of things on you. Triggering content could be just as damaging as stimulants on your mind/body system. Is it one thing? Or, the traditional AMA idea of separate? Keep in mind back in the '50s, many doctors said that smoking was good for you and single payer health care was a evil Communist plot. However, Obama isn't a Communist or a Socialist. He's just someone with leadership potential who isn't using it (IMO).

As I continue to heal from a long history of untreated vicious abuse, I'm sticking to no caffeine. I've been off it for about six months, and I still have hallucinations from hyper acidity. Is there any way to measure how your nervous system heals (other than an acupuncturist using a meter to measure your chi flow)?

More stuff later.

Getting Scarier As You Go Along

I'm still trying to keep my system as healthy as I can. Set boundaries and trust your intution. Yet, despite all that more anger, frustration and feelings of abandonment come out as well.

I don't want to hurt myself or anyone else. However, I still at times feel like killing anyone who gets in my way. Can I trust anyone? Is everyone out to screw me over, and then kill me as well? I have to be extremely careful right now with so much triggering content everywhere. If you're not, you can end up dissociating for a week.

Why do the sick twisted lucid dreams, body pain and despair keep happening? Because I haven't dealt with it before. Which means it's going to come out.

I literally can't touch 99% of my formerly favorite foods. If I do, it causes horrible pain all over.

Now, another three weeks to go till the next therapist appointment.

Just Asking a Question(Potentially Triggering Content. Read at Your Own Risk)

I'm not encouraging violence in any way. I'm asking a necessary question to try and cope as I go thru my healing from being raped.

Not that you'd ever actually do it. But do you ever have a split second fantasy about getting revenge from your rapist for what they did to you?