Just Barely Above

Really struggling not to dissociate. For a long time, we had psychotic episodes every day. It felt like we were just barely above falling apart and having a psychotic break. NOBODY helped us for a REALLY LONG TIME. We don't want to go back to that.

Pain Is Flooding Out

You try to focus and to not dissociate. But today pain is flooding out. You don't want to be hooked on lots of new meds (due to my severe addiction history). But it still comes out.

If it doesn't come out in one way, it will come out in others.

Nightmares still happen. You try to go to sleep, but you're lucky if you can sleep for one hour at a time.

Protect yourself.

Is PTSD a Physical or Mental Illness?

From time to time, I run into a doctor or someone else who asks the question, is PTSD a mental illness? Or, a physical illness? I try to look at it as a holistic health problem. Why?

One reason is the symptoms that many people struggle with:

nightmares
anal pain
lucid dreams
dissociating
adrenalin surges

These are both physical and mental. Then again, not all but many doctors tend to have "tunnel vision" when dealing with certain problems. Fit it into a nice neat box. Then a prescription. Move onto the next patient.
I'm not saying all doctors are evil, nasty and only care about money. But I have had a lot of bad experiences when doctors wouldn't listen to my concerns. Especially about medications.

A doctor asks you about your history. You try to explain, and you're telling the truth. Despite that, the doctor puts you into a catagory and gives you meds. Sorry, but I'm not a case file. Why spend your limited time with  a doctor arguing and not going thru all possible treatment solutions? Nobody needs that.

Thanks for the ongoing support.