Peanut Butter and Herbal Tea

Lots of triggering stuff happening right now. My suggestion? Screen everything and only deal with what you have to.

Back to the therapist earlier today. While the appointment time is short, you do the best you can. Despite all the horrible stuff that happens, bear in mind that it's not your fault. I'm telling the truth. That's all that matters.

My overall detoxifying from trauma is still going on. So far, no other illnesses to worry about.

On the other hand, at times I still feel like I'm going to snap. Does that ever go away?

Herbal Tea and Other Thoughts

Another day of anger, screening, and fighting to not black out. Also, protect yourself at all costs. Unless you have to look at it, ask yourself: do I really need to see/read/hear this? If not, do something else.

There's lots of emptiness at times. Then again, what else can you do but keep going?

Diet plays a key role in trying to cope with symptoms. I can't touch some formerly favorite foods. Way too triggering, and I don't want to dissociate for a week trying to get my balance back. I'm also focusing to not fall back into old destructive dissociating patterns.

Am I a professional patient? No. Do I torture myself because my symptoms have been (and continue to be in many ways) severe? I try not to. Then again, there are many periods that are too painful to think about.

Time for some tea.