Now What?

One nice thing about this blog is that while we try to concentrate on trauma and connected issues, the connected issues can cover a lot. Case in point: Trump beating Hillary. Called a support line earlier today, and we talked about not taking on the pain of the world AND your trauma pain all at once. I used to do that, and eventually said enough. As far as Trump winning, I try to look at it like, do the best you can to keep going to make things better. I made an informed choice and voted Green. Now, remember that your well being comes first. Be aware and care. But if you're not together, you can't be effective.

How do you protect your well being? Some days we have no TV at all. You just want to feel safe in your own home. We still work proactively to not fall into a slump that might let us give into dissociating. By the end of the day, you can barely move. On the other hand, you have a brief sense of relief.

I have health problems that I'm trying to deal with as best I can. Stay safe.

It's Not Our Fault

The worst is happening. Trump's going to win. Massive depression. But on the other hand, it's not our fault.

Voting and More

I didn't want to be caught in a weird voting situation. Time had run out. Ballots had run out. Voting machines had broken down. I voted early, and today we'll see. Whatever happens, I know I made the right choice based on facts and not rumors. If the worst happens and Trump wins, it's not our fault.

We still struggle with not taking on the pain of the world, along with our pain as well. Be aware and care. But your well being comes first. If we had to emigrate, where would we go? I'm not sure. But it would be the second time in my case.

Fight symptoms. Constant exhaustion. But you don't have a choice.

Really Run Down

Even with trying to sleep in, you still feel exhausted. You fight to not dissociate by anticipating better if possible. This leads to fighting all day long. You can't do nothing, You have to protect yourself.

You don't want to fall apart.

Fight to Not Dissociate

Fighting symptoms all day long. Especially dissociating. It's like you try to see it coming more in advance, which makes you even more exhausted.

What else can you do?

Exhaustion

Almost no sleep last night. A psychiatrist appointment today. Then, the Cubs lose the Series. Oh well. Enough for one day.

Stay safe.

It's All Connected

Is my chronic heart failure getting worse? My appetite is going down. My energy level is going down. I'm trying to stay away from salt and sugar as much as possible. Also, screen everything to protect yourself from violently triggering stuff.

I can barely eat anything. I can only drink tiny amounts of liquid without being bloated all the time. No luck yet in getting an earlier cardiologist appointment. We'll see.