How's Your Balance?

Another rough start of having to fight to focus and wake up. We're still having nightmares as well. Far too graphic to spell out here. Overall, it's still exhausting to fight all of this stuff.

On the other hand, you have to keep going. Despite this and feeling like almost everyone else could care less about you, try to set that aside. You don't want to admit that we exist. Ok. We'll go elsewhere and set up our own network to speak out.

Do you have the feeling that you're the only one who sees the overall picture? We're not talking about end-of-the-world conspiracy rubbish. Just the feeling of you know everything that people will say and do. Then, you also know what all of the responses will be. Which then leads you to say, why am I watching this?

We'll mention it again. Stay away from it unless you have to look at it. But also, protect yourself at all times.

Have you ever spoken out about your trauma to anyone? In the past we have. Now though, aside from here we don't do it. Why? Because it's not worth it. Regardless of their situation, people can only take so much. After a certain point, we said, right. Nobody wants to hear us. Fine. We'll set up our own outlets to speak out.

Part of the ulgy truth is this. If we were outed, we could have serious problems in lots of areas. Who wants to hire someone with PTSD? We could literally be uninsurable for health care because of something that's not our fault.

If you're faced with obstacles like that, would you willingly out yourself?

Instead, we stick to here and protecting ourselves. But also, we're not responsible for these other people. They have to live with the consequences of their actions. Not us.