Exhaustion

Sorry to be away for a few days. It wasn't by choice. It was due to being totally wiped out from symptoms. Today, non stop fighting to not dissociate. You struggle with how violently severe psychosis symptoms were and continue to be. You can't sit back and do nothing. Which means on really bad days you just stay home and in bed. You have to protect yourself.

You're not insane
You're not crazy
You're not weird
You're not abnormal in any way

Don't dissociate. Do something else. You scream and fight to not snap. You're not a danger to anybody. Weird thoughts about raping little kids come to mind. But you'd never act on them.

You're not weird. You're not insane.

Sorry, but I need a break right now. More later.