Sunday, September 30, 2012

I'm Not Sure How to Feel

The past couple of weeks have been really rough. Two car accidents (both not my fault). Struggling with symptoms. Then, my grandmother passed away. Now, it's struggling with symptoms as you try in some way to show support.

I'm not sure how to feel. The grandfather (now dead) was a notorious abusive alocholic pedophile. We still have nightmares of him sneaking into the room and raping us. You're terrified to move as you scream and fight to not black out or die.

Nobody will touch us in a reassuring way. Nobody will say we're sorry that you were raped. Nobody will say we know this funeral is a horribly triggering situation for you.

No support at all.

What would you do?

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