Some Positive Changes

Went to get my potassium and try that out in the diet. We haven't seen any studies that definately prove that there's a diet-PTSD connection. Then again, there's practically a study to support anything. Is this ALL a corporate plot?

We're really trying to keep a balance. The tolerance for junk food is gone. As for triggers, one minute we feel like there's some balance. The next, we curl up in the corner and have to fight off all the assholes that treated us like shit. Or want to rape and then kill us.

At night, sometimes we keep a pair of scissors or a knife next to the bed just in case. A gun permit is out of the question because if we black out, it's too dangerous.

What sources for help do you use? We hope this helps. But also, have your found Stateside ones that are beneficial? For us, sometimes we use intl. help lines. They're are lots of them out there. You just have to check them out.

Thanks for the support. And please link this blog everywhere you can.

A Breakthrough?

How's your week? Came across something interesting about PTSD. Eating too much salt depletes potassium in your body. Not enough potassium can cause problems with your nervous system. Including PTSD tremors as well?

There's a little more awareness of diet right now. We just don't have tolerance for tons of salt, sugar, fat and other stuff. So we'll try to avoid it as much as possibe. Does this also effect adrenalin surges too? We're not sure.

Your thoughts on this.

Day 6 and Catching Up

How's your holiday weekend? Here, it's pacing (some work that has to be done. And then how do you party on very little money)? We'll work it out.

Went shopping earlier today and had a big surprise. Usually on a hot day you automatically buy bottled water? Thinking that you're being good to your body? You're not. It turns out that the average bottle of water has almost 100 grams of salt in it. A bottle of tea? Maybe 20. Which means that the bottled water racket is just that? Salty tap water that makes your body lose more water the more you drink. Also, we think that's a big part of dealing with tremors from dissociating. Now a challenge. Is it possible to have a salt-free diet? We'll let you know how it goes.

How's it going dealing with your triggers?

Balance

Into the holiday weekend. And everything still has to be censored. Do you have the feeling that all of the terror of being raped suddenly hits you all at once? It feels like everything's going to turn black. You have nowhere to escape to and you have ten seconds to live. How do you cope with that (especially when you're in a crowded place)?

At times flashbacks are dissociating feel like you're going to snap. But you also know that you have to get it out (in a hopefully safe manner). How do you cope with feeling empty? You know that you're here. But you feel like there's literally nothing else. If that happens to us we have to literally shock ourselves back into some sense of balance.

Have a safe weekend.

4 Days in a Row!

Happy holiday weekend here in the States. In th U.K., you already had your holiday weekend. Now it 's our turn.

Will anybody be traveling anywhere? Probably not. I'd like to. But money is still tight.

We're still sticking to protection at all costs. Tonight, we're staying in and no noise. The Blackberry is off. Just peace and quiet.

How do you cope when you need to turn everything off? Lately for us it's just disconnect everything. You don't have to check your email. There's literally nothing on TV. Online, not much either.

Do you still have flashbacks and violent lucid dreams? Sometimes we do (usually at the worst times). How do you cope with that AND safely get out of a crowded place? How do you regain sensation in your hands so you can dial a number on your mobile? Sometimes adrenalin surges are so bad it takes almost 20 minutes to be able to do it.

A step at a time. But we're not sure when we'll be able to go back to the therapist. For now, it's use other sources.

Day 3 and Here's Wha't's Up

Doing ok today? We still have to fight to focus in the morning. We still have to edit everything. But then again, protecting yourself comes first.

Any suggestions on herbs that help you to cope? Please post if you do.

Sticking to It

Trying to stick to posting every day. Also, today I stocked up on green salsa for the chips. Am I addicted? We'll see....

EVERYTHING is raw right now. No TV, no news (unless it's a emergency), no tunes, nothing. Everything feels like a threat. Hyperawareness is really high. Which means we're doing everything we can to stay grounded.

Are you having stretches like this? If you are, what helps you to deal with it? Do you have the feeling that you're about right steps ahead of the world? Are you the ONLY one that sees what's going on? We know we're not. Still, at times you feel like all of the terror of being raped hits you at once. And where do you go to try and get your balance back?

My suggestion: stay away from all MSM. The politicians have NO CLUE about what's going on :).