The Market Goes Up. And How About You?

The market was up almost 5% today. A short term rise? We'll see.

How are your symptoms today? At times it's been tough to concentrate. But maybe now I'm getting past the worst withdrawl ones. We still feel like we're going to snap. Last night it was poring rain and we had to drive out to the empty parking lot. Then we screamed for about an hour to fight for balance and not to vanish.

How do you cope with anger like that? What helps you? I've heard some people talk about hypnosis and other tools. But right now, cost is a big problem. So any other comments would be great.

Thanks for the support.

A Lot of Anger

Fighting really hard to keep a balance. Day 5 now of no caffeine and salt. The withdrawl symptoms are really nasty. At times I want to kill everyone who gets in my way. But I refuse to sink down to these asshole's level.

Do you still have symptoms? I had to stop going to therapy for a while (due to money problems). But we can still email without him feeling like I'm ripping him off for "free therapy".

With the economy messed up, mental health is still getting cut. And some help lines are blowing people off because they're "abusing" the line.

What's "abuse"? Who's to decide what degree of dissociating (and other symptoms) qualify as OFFICIALLY being a "crisis"? That's amazing that they try to get away with this.

Back to it.

Trying to Cope

What's going on in Monday (if it is Monday where you are)? Took a break this weekend and stayed away from almost all news. You have to protect yourself all around (especially from triggers).

Day 3 with no caffeine. And salt is another danger sign too. One bag of Doritos is roughly 1600 grams of sodium. My therapist says that after a certain point of abuse, your tolerance is shot. Does this mean salt-free everything? Who knows.

Feel free to comment.

It's Friday. Really?

Did you survive another Market Lots of changes in my blogs and site to try and make as much money as possible. But no worries about this one. There will NEVER be ads on this blog.

No caffeine now for almost 24 hours. For some reason I just can't touch it anymore. Which means lots of water and as little juice as possible. Can't drink booze anymore. What to do????

Another Tough Day

Had a tough stretch today with anger and dissociating. The frustration is really bad at times. Why does this ALWAYS have to happen? We still at times feel like we're going to snap. Also at times flashbacks hit hard. But we have to fight back. We have no choice.

Thanks for the support. I see that we're getting responses from many areas. We always maintian anonymity here. But also, please pass this URL to everyone it might help. Every little bit helps to raise us on the search engines. No ego trip, but just reaching an audience.

Fighting Really Hard to not Dissociate

Another busy Wednesday. I'm keeping up, but it's hard to not dissociate. Triggers are EVERYWHERE. I can't touch any caffeine right now at all. Anger comes flaring out and it's hard to focus.

Any suggestions on how to cope?

Everything is SOOO expensive

How are you coping in the Global Meltdown? Everything is so expensive. And who keeps getting billions in free bailout money? AIG, Bank of America and others. And, there's NO LIMIT. Will we soon have to have bagfuls of money to buy a loaf of bread? It happens in other countries. So why not here?

Symptoms still happen. But I'm still using my mix of herbs, meditation and more. There's a LOT of homicidal anger. At times you feel like you're going to black out. I'm really trying to stay away from triggers as much as possible. But the despair is really debilitating.

Do you have the same thing? What helps you to not slip into this? Do you ever get past the anger from being raped? Also, how do you cope when it feels like nobody wants to listen to you?